The confused Hindu in me

Well going by the customs or birth I am a Hindu a Hindu who has never read Geeta beyond the required bare mininmum. A hindu who never realized that my identity is beyond being Tanay or education or marks. But then comes Godhra and one day I woke up and realize people are killing each other Rapes, loot, murder all in the name of a Revenge. I realized I had to either be with them or against them atleast for my own peace of mind , I realized whatever Hinduism is it cant be teaching murder or a highly contorted form of jihaad. Then I realized I need to acknowledge the fact that as a hindu I need to wake up and say Me and and those killing innocents in the name of Hinduism cant be the same side of the Coin , I realized I didnt wanted to be associated with any religion that can do such inhuman things to fellow humans. I thought a hindu should wake up and say this is not hinduism and this is barbarism. So I did what every coward -- intellectual did at that time started hating Mr Modi and making his thought public and assuming the duty is over. The duty of a Hindu and somewhere the duty of an Indian was lost. Oh yes the hatred with Mr Modi countinued.

That was 2002 now comes 2008 and the last few attacks on Indian Soil , where we lacked I think what we lacked was leadership a will and a determincation to fight and then came the clincher when a close friend of mine said Do we need Mr Modi as a Home Misnister ??? I said hell No , The hindu in me shouted "No way". But then I realized Gujarat is free of communal riots since long , Modi had made RSS his enemy , he got majority and blah blah blah..

I think we need him , or may be we don't or may be Hindu hates him and Hindu loves him but may be India needs him. Or may be its just a lack of leaders so its effectively choosing between devil and deep sea.
But whatever something needs to be done .................... else mumbai will keep on burning in one part of India or other.

The Digital or Monetry divide

Well we so frequently say in India we have this digital divide I always think its just a fashionable word coined by some pseudo intellectuals , issue in general is broader, between have's and have not's. I might sound contrary to popular wisdom but what exactly is penetration of Digital technology in India. We still live in vilages where we look at sky for the irrigation.The issue is Monetry, the divide is actually monetry.I actually just went thru this video
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M0XTPSYdP08
It basically depicts the aspirations( Have nots) or disappointments ( Haves) on the people when they have been offered rs 500. I was actually little moved, Rs 500 is a miniscule amount but I just realized this is the money I pay to my servant who works for me at an avg of 25 days a month. And it means something to her.So what is the underlying fact that I wanted to highlight just that I think me and most of the people reading this blog are lucky and its high time we should do something for the people who aren't as lucky as we are.

Yes I call it luck, I was lucky to be born in a family where Meals was not a problem and they can afford my education and ofcourse everything else follows.

As usual clue less in life

Well
Sometimes I kind of hit road blocks when, one day I just wake up and think oh God what the hell am I doing , or more confusing what was I suppose to do.

• I Joined Adobe because people say its one of the best company to work for
• I joined IIM L because my parents said for a middle class Indian education is the only saviour and we Indians are obsessed with IIMs and IIts
• I got engaged because after 4 years of affair this is what you were supposed to do.

So deep down if you look I am not doing things because I want to do them I am doing because they are obvious choices but the root thing is What should I do to make life meaning ful. Do I have a goal, do things have a meaning or do I have a long term vision or just few multiple short term goals here and there. So lets accept here is a Man of 27 years educated by one of the best univ in India , working with a well known MNC but deep down totally confused totally clueless and above all staring at the sky and thinking One day...................................................

Clueless and confused

A creature named Tanay

The last few updates

Well I just realized its been a long since I last wrote anything here. Well just give me a brief of developments:

• Left Hewitt after 2.7 years
• Joined Adobe with lot of dreams
• Joined IIM L Noida campus for MBA
• Got engaged to my old friend Monika.

So where am I heading to as usual clue less.